I've been thinking about this a lot this week, but might have forgotten some important ideas along the line, so if this doesn't make sense try thinking for yourself for once.
As i don't want to upset anybody i'll use an example from fiction. Sansa Stark, one of the female characters in Game of Thrones, a book i've been reading again. Now i knew that she is a useless tit while reading it last time but this time i started to think about why can she be a useless tit?
All her brothers and even her little sister are smart, independent, honest, and loyal. Her parents are too. But she is a useless delusional tit. All she is good for is getting married to 'her' king. Who is an asshole, which she doesn't see as she is a delusional useless tit.
Which is precisely why she can be a useless tit, getting married to a guy is all she is born for. Her sister gets in trouble for not being like that. As long as her social net is around Sansa has it far better than Arya, her sister. But the moment trouble shows up she is helpless. Actually she doesn't even see that she is in 'bantha poodoo'. It takes her a while to grasp the situation. Sadly her tit-ness has by then harmed everyone around her.
Now to take my case, i'm a useless tit when dealing with other humans. I just don't know how to do it and in many cases just can't. And i don't mean this as in 'i don't want to try because it's hard' but as in ' i won't try because the last time i did i spent an hour writhing in pain on the floor because my stomach felt as if it would implode'. And people keep giving me shit about it. I didn't become like this because i wanted to and i'm the person it hurts the most but still people get angry at me for being this way.
They ask me to do things completely normal for any 'normal' human being but impossible for me and when i tell them i can't they get mad. And then i watch them being useless tits themselves but congratulating themselves for it because it doesn't hurt their lives. Other peolpe being useless tits is what has made me what i am. My parents where useless as parents, my siblings as siblings, the destroyer of lives as girlfriend/friend/decent human being and still they are better off than me. Because their tit-ness didn't hurt them. It just hurt those around them.
Now my tit-ness hurts only me, but instead of helping me, they push their tit-ness into my lives and make it worse. So to all you tits out there i just have to say, that i'll start listening to you when you start listening to me and actually fix your own shit before berating me about mine. Oh and try asking me how you can help me instead of telling me what i should be doing. I know what i should be doing. I also know what you should be doing and you're not doing it either, so fuck off.
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